sheep

the more i live
the more i understand the weight
of the blessings i've been given.
the desire for growrh
was woven into the fabric of my being
like a calling meant for me to listen.
i can't imagine choosing something easy
when the hard thing is what pushs you forward.
I'd rather be uncomfortable
in a brand new life
than comfortable 
with a life that's become a painful normal.
it scares you deeply to leave your own nightmares.
and it's valid
i feel it too
but why would i be scared of the demons 
when i was there when they were created?
they're just sheep running freely
and i'm the shepherd they listen to.