omg you wanna keep up with me??? *forehead kiss*
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What if Feeling Wasn’t Forbidden?
Recently, I’ve begun feeling my emotions in my body rather than intellectualizing them. The relief I felt from connecting to my emotional body was immediate and I couldn’t help but wonder how different life would be if I wasn’t forbidden from feeling. I grew up as the crybaby of my family. I was too dramatic…
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Fearing Change
I’m grateful that my family dysfunction felt excruciatingly unbearable. Growing up, it made sense to me that my peers would be more likely to live fulfilling lives because their family dysfunction appeared to be easily withstandable. However, when you feel like you can ignore certain unhealthy dynamics because “it’s not that bad”, you never become…
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Late Night Thoughts (2)
I’ve spent the past 27 years telling myself that my family were the odd ones. Every relationship (romantic, platonic, or familial) was laced with dysfunction and I assumed my family was one of the few that lived this way. I was certain that lacking emotional stability, vulnerability, accountability, self-awareness, empathy, communication skills, etc was abnormal.…
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Late Night Thoughts
It’s currently 1:30AM and I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep without writing what’s on my mind. I’m not sure if this realization is simply part of becoming an adult, but lately I’ve felt like I spent my childhood overestimating humanity. The way a child believes their guardians are perfect role models and then…
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